Well, its a cloudy day, and I should be studying government. But, I really don't care for politics and government. I haven't even voted before. (Ashley hasn't either, I guess we just haven't matured enough, we would rather get on my roof and look at the stars and dream of better days Somewhere else). So yeah, not motivated.
That's what I like about Ashley. We can relate to each other. By just wanting to never work, and go on vacations, and just not really enjoy things like "higher education". (Haha. we are not lazy people, that may be one assumption, but I think it really is just a craving for a Better Place) Why am I telling this: I really don't know. Again I think I am just avoiding this thing called "studying". Anybody teach it in high school? No. Oh but your going to have to learn it in college when your 18! That's smart. Haha. Oh well, its all good baby.
Again I find myself rambling: but Blogging is legal in all 50 states (sorry Puerto Rico, we holdin you out dawg)
Here is the thought for the day I guess: What I really hate most in this life, is the pharisical heart. The irony of religion is that you are supposed to be Free (well in the good news of Jesus) but the thing is; there is this thing called "the yeast of the Pharisee" and it goes undected in a good many hearts of men at one time who were in love with the Lord, and then its poison got to them. I think that happened to me a bit last semester. I found something inside me, not being able to love. Its hard to explain; but I texted it to Ashley one day
..."what I hated most, I was becoming"...
And thats when I realized I was treading upon dark spiritual pride waters...and through a lot (I mean months) of cleansing, I feel so much more better. Ah its like a huge weight is off my shoulders. And still though this "yeast" beckons me to eat it; that's why a secular man can actually be closer to Christ than a regular Church goer. A lame man more healed than a preacher. A rebel child than a "good child". Its this paradox created by the seed of evil. Spiritual Pride. Phariseeism. Anyways, it goes undected until one day...you realize it has consumed you. But again when and how long will it take "for a good look in the ole reality mirror"? A look into Jesus?
Here maybe is a passage that helps (I really hope it does; because there is alot of Truth here, something we need right now in the Church)
"It is not hard to spot guilt-ridden faith, for it is full of anxiety, full of nagging, worries about "finding God's will," or "loving one's neighbor," "grieving the Spirit," or "taking the gospel to the ends of the earth." This faith is endlessly and neurotically preoccupied with its own performance, with its own power and holiness or lack thereof. Always it has an eye on the heavenly box office, the celestial ratings. A bad rating will cause it not to love more, but to try harder; not to fix its eyes on Jesus, but to examine itself more feverishly. Worst of all, such hypersensitive egocentricity always spills over into an authoritative, judgemental attitude toward others. This is the hypocrisy that Jesus called the "yeast of the Pharisees". (Luke 12:1) - Mike Mason
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