"If I say,
'I will not mention Him,
or speak anymore in His name,'
there is in my heart
as it were a burning fire
shut up in my bones,
and I am weary holding it in,
and
I cannot."
Jeremiah 20:9
At times it feels like you hear "the whisperings" of others. This may or may not be the reality, but you sense the opposition or disgust. Most of the time, its those closest to us, at other times, outsiders that don't really know you. Either way, we cannot give in and become someone we aren't for their liking, for their molding, and ultimately for their pleasure. Friends and family would have you be one way, whereas God has put Himself inside you for another Way. Sometimes these are the same, but I wonder how many times they truly are not. Again Jeremiah praises God not because of his amazing circumstances, but because He is God. Jeremiah continues to say 'for to you have I committed my cause.' Even in the midst of opposition and the hidden blank portrait people paint of you and your life, stands the call of God and His statement about you; "For I know the plans I have for you". It hurts though, it doesn't feel good when your the outsider. But, 'I cannot'. I will always be a servant of the Lord, 'I cannot' stop.
"Sing to the Lord;
praise the Lord!
For he has delivered the life of the needy
from the hand of evildoers."
Jeremiah 20:13
Amen.