"Turn the Page"

We listened to a great sermon today.

When I would or do pray in my mind "Lord cleanse my mind" , it was to remove all false thoughts that were falling/coming at me at the moment. Its a prayer.

"Turn the page" is more of saying but you could make it your prayer like Paul.. "Forgetting the things behind and pressing onto the future prize"  In essence its a prayer to move on and have a healing that can cause you to be at peace in the moments ahead.

"Lord renew my mind"

"Dear God, forgive me"

" Dear God, I'm sorry"

"Place Your angels around us"

"Protect Millie's heart , her mind, her body, and her soul"

These are prayers I pray.

But I need to pray them.

Not say them.

Disgusted

The more and more I live , the more and more I realize that acceptance is a big thing....Wait... the idol in my life isn't comfort, it isn't money.... Its success.

I have to be successful.

Which seems like a good thing. But I am constantly under the false scrutiny of what other perceive to be "success"

I am too concerned about what others think. What they might define as success. For some just going to work is a success, for some its being the lead sales guy, for others its getting to the "final bell".

So its comes down to what I think success is and here it is: A nice solid bank account, nice real estate investment, a really nice business, and then comes the luxury of sitting on top of the pile and going on vacations and just making money without working hard anymore...

Yeah that is my definition of success.

I should be disgusted to call myself a Christian.