Listen to this language:
" Borne our griefs"
"Carried our sorrows"
"Pierced for our transgressions"
"Crushed for our inquities"
Having a hard time putting this in words...so I wont try to. I cannot comprehend this text. I really cannot. I can rejoice. But I cannot comprehend. So thankful God never requires us to fully understand this Way.
Dear Holy Spirit, show me more in depth the Love you have for me and everyone else around me....
Amen.
Wednesday, May 28, 2014
Monday, May 26, 2014
Love at 500 Degrees
Good to be back home. Blessed and thankful I get to spend this life with my two girlies...I love watching our grass, flowers, and trees grow, but nothing in comparison to the love that grows within our little family.
Love at 500 degrees
Love at 500 degrees
Sunday, May 18, 2014
BE STILL
Love to reflect on life. Today has been good to rest and be still.
There is a battle that wages for our attentions, desires, and worries.
By attentions I mean our focus.
By desires I mean our interests.
By worries I mean our fears.
By our focus I mean our purpose.
By our interests I mean our endeavors.
By our fears I mean our insecurities.
What I mean is this: What are we searching for?> What are we trying to obtain>?
Resting in God is essential to survival and renewal.
Survival in the sense that are attentions, desires, and worries are put back in correct perspective
Renewal in the sense our focus, interests, and fears are being made new.
Which leads to His purpose, His endeavors, and the washing away of our insecurities.
I may be trying to get cute with all this language and just trying to make this all connect.
But somehow I feel it is. And to make it more simple I will give you a hint...
His name is Jesus and He alone can give your life purpose and meaning. Peace and joy. Love and glory.
We need to be reminded each day. Or we will wander away. Its just our natural sinful nature to wander. So rather than walk around aimlessly, lets run and rest in the arms of our Savior. Jesus Christ.
I will leave myself with this: "Be still and know that I am God."
There is a battle that wages for our attentions, desires, and worries.
By attentions I mean our focus.
By desires I mean our interests.
By worries I mean our fears.
By our focus I mean our purpose.
By our interests I mean our endeavors.
By our fears I mean our insecurities.
What I mean is this: What are we searching for?> What are we trying to obtain>?
Resting in God is essential to survival and renewal.
Survival in the sense that are attentions, desires, and worries are put back in correct perspective
Renewal in the sense our focus, interests, and fears are being made new.
Which leads to His purpose, His endeavors, and the washing away of our insecurities.
I may be trying to get cute with all this language and just trying to make this all connect.
But somehow I feel it is. And to make it more simple I will give you a hint...
His name is Jesus and He alone can give your life purpose and meaning. Peace and joy. Love and glory.
We need to be reminded each day. Or we will wander away. Its just our natural sinful nature to wander. So rather than walk around aimlessly, lets run and rest in the arms of our Savior. Jesus Christ.
I will leave myself with this: "Be still and know that I am God."
Sunday, May 11, 2014
Sunday, May 4, 2014
05/04/2014
I told the guys in our Church group that I have a blog I write in, and that nobody probably reads it...
They asked if I publish it online and stuff, and my answer was "nope, just like to write and read it back to myself"
So I am glad and hopeful one day I can keep reading previous posts and see what was going on in my life at the time...
But unfortunately we are faced with The Present. The problem with us humans is our tendency to live either more in the past or more in the future.
So Presently , today is Sunday Morning 05/04/2014...
I love Sunday Mornings here at our house, its so hard to go to actual church on Sundays, Millie naps around the 11:15 service and the earlier service we couldn't bring ourselves to attend , since we are always wiped out from the morning, but its peaceful here.
I wrestle at times when we cant actually physically attend church, but I sometimes what we really need is rest and time alone with God. For some reason this is easier at home? Atleast with an infant.
Cant wait though to be back in normal churchgoing attendance. Its important. Its a reminder you are not alone and can worship with believers and soak in the Holy Spirit and hear His Word.
I would like to think recently I have been more joyful. I want to choose joy. I want to pursue it. God is my joy. He is my peace.
Joy never goes without peace. Peace never goes without joy.
Rarely am I truly joyful if I don't have peace. Rarely am I peaceful if I am not joyful.
Calm and still are the gifts of God's peace. Thankful that He loves me.
Mike Mason wrote this "He loves me , he doesn't not love me for who I am not"
That is truth. God loves me. He doesn't have a BOX. He doesn't put me in a category and then goes off what I am doing wrong vs. what I am doing right.
He doesn't look at me and with frowning eyes cant believe I am not "THAT".
So therefore I will only again concern myself with His love and His worth.
For He sees me...
And with Faith I can truly repeat the words of God Himself...
"Well done my true and faithful son, with whom I am pleased"
He is pleased with you. Not what you aren't.
Peace without joy. Is not peace.
Joy without peace. Is not joy.
God loves you...
Have a good Sunday.
05/04/2104
They asked if I publish it online and stuff, and my answer was "nope, just like to write and read it back to myself"
So I am glad and hopeful one day I can keep reading previous posts and see what was going on in my life at the time...
But unfortunately we are faced with The Present. The problem with us humans is our tendency to live either more in the past or more in the future.
So Presently , today is Sunday Morning 05/04/2014...
I love Sunday Mornings here at our house, its so hard to go to actual church on Sundays, Millie naps around the 11:15 service and the earlier service we couldn't bring ourselves to attend , since we are always wiped out from the morning, but its peaceful here.
I wrestle at times when we cant actually physically attend church, but I sometimes what we really need is rest and time alone with God. For some reason this is easier at home? Atleast with an infant.
Cant wait though to be back in normal churchgoing attendance. Its important. Its a reminder you are not alone and can worship with believers and soak in the Holy Spirit and hear His Word.
I would like to think recently I have been more joyful. I want to choose joy. I want to pursue it. God is my joy. He is my peace.
Joy never goes without peace. Peace never goes without joy.
Rarely am I truly joyful if I don't have peace. Rarely am I peaceful if I am not joyful.
Calm and still are the gifts of God's peace. Thankful that He loves me.
Mike Mason wrote this "He loves me , he doesn't not love me for who I am not"
That is truth. God loves me. He doesn't have a BOX. He doesn't put me in a category and then goes off what I am doing wrong vs. what I am doing right.
He doesn't look at me and with frowning eyes cant believe I am not "THAT".
So therefore I will only again concern myself with His love and His worth.
For He sees me...
And with Faith I can truly repeat the words of God Himself...
"Well done my true and faithful son, with whom I am pleased"
He is pleased with you. Not what you aren't.
Peace without joy. Is not peace.
Joy without peace. Is not joy.
God loves you...
Have a good Sunday.
05/04/2104
Thursday, May 1, 2014
Starting Now
"A life of joy rests upon the discovery of what I, and I alone, am meant to do, and then doing this with all my heart." Mike Mason, Champagne for the Soul: A book on Joy
Not sure how to start this blog. Over the past couple months, I have been looking inwardly at my life and its relation to joy. Well my life's physical expression of my inward state or condition.
What I really mean is this:
I yearn to do what God would have me do.
I want to serve Him.
I want to please Him.
I want my life to be full of joy and peace.
I want to be myself and nothing less , nothing more.
I want people to see Jesus
When we moved to Austin, I knew this is where God wanted us to be. Always it has been "to be a light in a dark place"... I think it is time to reassess this desire. How have we been doing>?
I am finding out , you need fellow Christians in your life. I am finding out , God will lead you to them.
I am finding out, God is with you and your life is right in front of you at all times. Its funny cause we always desire things, yet most of the time they're occurring RIGHT NOW. Instead of always looking ahead, lets be thankful for the day.
I am thankful for Jesus. I don't tell Him this enough, I am thankful. My life was miserable before He came into it. I was lost, trying to feel the void with almost anything.
I am thankful for Ashley. She is the first person who has loved me more than I have loved anything.. I love her so much. But she loves me more. That is hard to say, but she loves me more. I don't know why she loves me so much. She sees me for what I really am everyday and still chooses to love me , and love me unconditionally.
I am thankful for Millie. I haven't been able to comprehend my love for her. I love her so much. I can look at her and all my problems usually just go away. Thank you God for trusting myself with her. I will do my best.
I am thankful for Family. We have 2 loving families. Sinful? Yes. But loving. That is all we could ask for. All we need.
I am thankful for being in Austin. So thankful to live where we do and start community with believers around us.
Thankful for a job. Thankful that I can provide each month.
We have never gone without 1 meal. We have never had 1 night homeless. We have never gone unclothed.
We have Jesus. We really do. He is enough. Our hearts are sinful and can be led so easily astray. We play with our toys and dabble with earthly things, but we truly only need Jesus. May He wash away all else.
I really am believing more that we don't have to be rich to be happy. That is so hard to stop and truly believe.
Think about. And then yeah that's kinda what everyone is after...
Which leads me back to joy and the first sentence up at the top...
May God bring me to this conclusion at the end of my life, that I may find what would bring my soul utmost Joy and utmost purpose . I know God will show me this. Please do Lord, may I start to get ready for this....
Not sure how to start this blog. Over the past couple months, I have been looking inwardly at my life and its relation to joy. Well my life's physical expression of my inward state or condition.
What I really mean is this:
I yearn to do what God would have me do.
I want to serve Him.
I want to please Him.
I want my life to be full of joy and peace.
I want to be myself and nothing less , nothing more.
I want people to see Jesus
When we moved to Austin, I knew this is where God wanted us to be. Always it has been "to be a light in a dark place"... I think it is time to reassess this desire. How have we been doing>?
I am finding out , you need fellow Christians in your life. I am finding out , God will lead you to them.
I am finding out, God is with you and your life is right in front of you at all times. Its funny cause we always desire things, yet most of the time they're occurring RIGHT NOW. Instead of always looking ahead, lets be thankful for the day.
I am thankful for Jesus. I don't tell Him this enough, I am thankful. My life was miserable before He came into it. I was lost, trying to feel the void with almost anything.
I am thankful for Ashley. She is the first person who has loved me more than I have loved anything.. I love her so much. But she loves me more. That is hard to say, but she loves me more. I don't know why she loves me so much. She sees me for what I really am everyday and still chooses to love me , and love me unconditionally.
I am thankful for Millie. I haven't been able to comprehend my love for her. I love her so much. I can look at her and all my problems usually just go away. Thank you God for trusting myself with her. I will do my best.
I am thankful for Family. We have 2 loving families. Sinful? Yes. But loving. That is all we could ask for. All we need.
I am thankful for being in Austin. So thankful to live where we do and start community with believers around us.
Thankful for a job. Thankful that I can provide each month.
We have never gone without 1 meal. We have never had 1 night homeless. We have never gone unclothed.
We have Jesus. We really do. He is enough. Our hearts are sinful and can be led so easily astray. We play with our toys and dabble with earthly things, but we truly only need Jesus. May He wash away all else.
I really am believing more that we don't have to be rich to be happy. That is so hard to stop and truly believe.
Think about. And then yeah that's kinda what everyone is after...
Which leads me back to joy and the first sentence up at the top...
May God bring me to this conclusion at the end of my life, that I may find what would bring my soul utmost Joy and utmost purpose . I know God will show me this. Please do Lord, may I start to get ready for this....
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