Desire

"You can never really know the Scriptures

until you're willing to be changed by them."

- Brother Yun



Never the Same

"Unless the Lord builds the house,

those who build it labor in vain.

Unless the Lord watches over the city,

the watchman stays awake in vain."

Psalm 127:1

I just woke up from a nap. Not a good dream. Hell is a place where bad dreams, rather nightmares, you never wake up from. Heaven will be more real than earth. I had to write a poem from this dream from the ever increasing awareness of this theme: "Man is always trying to justify their existence"



I am no longer bound

By my performances on the mound

Chained by wins and losses

By making happy all the bosses

I went up the ladder

Thinking once I got to the top

The world would never stop

I sat down on my chair

Yet I was still empty and full of despair

My life was a party full of decay

Trying to feed my justification every day

But nothing worked; no nothing worked

All was vanity and false sanity

Just a mere feeling of inconsequentiality

But in came Jesus.

And I have never been the same

No; I have never been the same



Oh Nelly

With engagement pictures on the horizon, I went today and got a fresh cut for $10.00. They have got to get steamed towels! Men love steamed towels. Ask around. Seriously do it. Men love steamed towels. We like to have heat pressed against our faces. Its scientific.

So I have been eating better. My best form of exercise right now is Ping Pong on Wii Sports Resort! Man I am straight wrecking shop (or pong?). I am on level 1300 something; this grandma Nelly is my toughest opponent, she shows no mercy and has great touch. One day Nelly...one day.

Of course I have been running; but only for about 7 minutes. Its tough to run any longer, you just get bored with it. I used to run about 3 miles without stopping, but I also played college baseball. Now its tough to push myself, I mean don't get me wrong engagement pictures are important. But when do you need stamina taking a picture? (I can't wait to give my "Magnum Face". I have been perfecting it. Watch for it when it comes out in May/June)

To shave or not to shave that is the question. I think shave. However, I don't want to look like a teenager getting married, this seems to happen when I shave. My mom thinks I look better. But Ashley likes a little "scruff". If I had any say in the matter I would grow a full on beard. Dye it blue. And then go streaking. (Guys come on I am just kidding; of course I want to look like an Abercrombie Model. Maybe Hollister. But they're not as perfected in the "Magnum Face". Maybe even Armani.)

I can't wait to go home after genetics and get my pong on. Then get my genetics on. But all day long be gettin my praise on. Puttin dat love on. Peace homes.

Forgiven

We cannot begin to love ourself, until we have forgiven ourself.

We cannot forgive, until we realize we have already been Forgiven.



"In Him we have redemption through His blood, the forgiveness of our trespasses, according to the riches of His grace." - Ephesians 1:7



Dandruff

Well, just sitting here writing. I like to always start out stating the obvious. You atleast can follow along that far, and then maybe by the end not stratch your head AS much. But I think my head is a bit numb from all the stratching I've already done in this life. Some things just don't make sense. Maybe they never will. By the time your done with college, you have done so much stratching you have formed dandruff. But like any good dandruff it takes a brushing off and a conditioning on.

Now Ashley likes hair. To do cool designs, and look up new ones. I just mostly wear a hat. Backwards. New Era. Baseball guy. You probably can spot most baseball players by the way they wear their hats. Used to be spitting...well nevermind that still exists.

Again just being random. Most people in my life have stated "You are the most random person I have ever met". My trademark back in middle school though earned me the nickname, "Pooter". My how I have evolved!

But those who are close to me know better than that. I am still much the same little boy I once was. Maybe even working my way back to that 15 year old heart.

Geniune Love is what this world needs. Its sad the way we love and treat our pets. So kind and tenderhearted. And its sad the way we love and treat people. So judgemental and cruel.

People are tough to love though. Complicated. Sinful.

But love we must. The hermit heart is lonely. It must open up. True Love suffers. Isn't this what we do when we "get dirty" and love people? We almost suffer? What divine portrayal of a Loving/Suffering Savior.

But only can we begin to love; when we accept love. When we can love ourselves for who we truly are. If we cannot love ourselves...how shall we love someone else?

But truly, we can only begin to love. Because He first loved us....

Love ya'll.

BEEP

I put the wrong soap in the dish-washer. It made a mess. It overflowed bubbles. Bubbles! I played around in them and then mopped them up; then re-ran it again and it did the same thing. But now my tile floor is really clean.

There is a smoke detector located in my kitchen. Who would do that? So I tried to turn it off, took out the battery and it still does this every 20 seconds BEEP thing.

I go into the bathroom; and my toilet handle doesnt work. The thing attached to the chain broke off; yeah so I gotta manually lift up the top of the toilet and stick my hand in there and pull the chain to flush the thing. I'm thinking Super Glue.

You can't run the microwave, fan, kitchen light, dish-washer, and window air units at the same time. It will blow a fuse. Atleast an Abilenian House.

Well I think thats it. I guess there are things in life you just can't do anything about. Just out of your control. Huh, good life lesson from the "House of Horrors". (and by horrors i mean the ever depressing BEEP thing)

Pray for my sanity this week.

Saturday

Happy Birthday to my friend Wade Woytek, he is officially turning 3 years old (in doggie years).

"Go outside praise the God who mapped the stars out in the sky"

                                                                - Robbie Seay Band

Go for a walk with the person you love.

Or cuddle on the couch.

 Either way do some lovin today.

Life is too short...mmmk?

Have a great Saturday.