Still Today

Time is longer and slower when you are waiting on something you want to see happen. Its longer and slower since the date and times become mere blurs because your timing isn't what is Reality. Reality is a full blown renovation takes 6-9 months collectively. We were hoping 3 months. Hah. Reality is, you have to wait to get matched for adoption and then wait until the baby comes. We thought it might just happen in like 3 months. We are the 3 month people. We say "10 years" and its like 3 Year Reality Check. I think its almost more an issue for someone when they realize their faults and cant correct them...I try and try and try to live by my own accord, and then I realize what happens... I cannot. I break my own rules, I break my own laws, and I can't even keep my head focused on what I know is Reality vs. my own timeframe. Just now I am sitting at my phone wondering if I should text someone to push them to get something done on my own timing. I mean its tough, how can you be patient when your home is fully gutted, your living with your parents, and your waiting on your adopted baby to come and then get finalization. That is kind of crazy. I mean I don't think we are bad people. But we did this to ourselves. We really did. I do feel like they were the right decisions though, but at the end of the day, this is our life....this is IT, right now, and Reality says, "Look its a LONG AND SLOW road". Take your time. Don't run through this life. Don't run so far ahead that you miss the Now. Don't miss the Now, because there is some unique beauty in living in Today. Today is Hard. But its still Today. Its still Today... For God's laws are pure , His way is sure, His call is divine