God our Constant

One thing I realize and I continue to know more and more about myself is that I have a control issue; a power struggle rooted in fear. I want to control things in my life and make them look a certain way. This is sadly isn't how the world operates. We live in a fallen world, it is broken and its always revolving. One thing I also know is true, that there is only One Constant. One Secure Foundation , One Rock that I am called to build my house upon. His Name is Jesus. Although everything around me seems chaotic and constantly changing, He does not. "Jesus Christ is the same, yesterday, today, and tomorrow". Its this place that I lay down my burdens: At the foot of the cross. This is where my soul finds its purpose and rest, my sanity and my clarity. I am not God. My life has been changing much lately. We have had 2 miscarriages. We are starting to walk down the path of open adoption and this has crushed my "vision" or my "border" of what I thought my life was going to LOOK like. That's another thing, I like to fashion what I think is supposed to happen for the future of my life. But when God brings you to a place where you cannot fashion anything, then the creative Creator can go to work and paint a picture you could never have drawn. The only constant in my life is Jesus. My work will ultimately leave me still feeling empty, even in the midst of growth. My wife will ultimately let me down , even though she is the most beautiful woman in the world. My kids will ultimately let me down, even though I would die for them. My house could burn down. My car could not start. My savings could literally go to nothing... But where will Tim Kriegel be? He will be okay, he will be resting at the foot of Jesus, he will be looking to the Center of universe. "Now to Him who is able to keep you from stumbling and to present you blameless before the presence of His glory with Great Joy, to the only God, our Savior, through Jesus Christ our Lord, be glory, majesty, dominion, and authority, before time and now and forever. Amen." Jude 24