Disgusted

The more and more I live , the more and more I realize that acceptance is a big thing....Wait... the idol in my life isn't comfort, it isn't money.... Its success.

I have to be successful.

Which seems like a good thing. But I am constantly under the false scrutiny of what other perceive to be "success"

I am too concerned about what others think. What they might define as success. For some just going to work is a success, for some its being the lead sales guy, for others its getting to the "final bell".

So its comes down to what I think success is and here it is: A nice solid bank account, nice real estate investment, a really nice business, and then comes the luxury of sitting on top of the pile and going on vacations and just making money without working hard anymore...

Yeah that is my definition of success.

I should be disgusted to call myself a Christian.