Starting Now

"A life of joy rests upon the discovery of what I, and I alone, am meant to do, and then doing this with all my heart." Mike Mason, Champagne for the Soul: A book on Joy

Not sure how to start this blog. Over the past couple months,  I have been looking inwardly at my life and its relation to joy. Well my life's physical expression of my inward state or condition.

What I really mean is this:

I yearn to do what God would have me do.

I want to serve Him.

I want to please Him.

I want my life to be full of joy and peace.

I want to be myself and nothing less , nothing more.

I want people to see Jesus

When we moved to Austin, I knew this is where God wanted us to be. Always it has been "to be a light in a dark place"... I think it is time to reassess this desire. How have we been doing>?

I am finding out , you need fellow Christians in your life. I am finding out , God will lead you to them.

I am finding out, God is with you and your life is right in front of you at all times. Its funny cause we always desire things, yet most of the time they're occurring RIGHT NOW. Instead of always looking ahead, lets be thankful for the day.

I am thankful for Jesus. I don't tell Him this enough, I am thankful. My life was miserable before He came into it. I was lost, trying to feel the void with almost anything.

I am thankful for Ashley. She is the first person who has loved me more than I have loved anything.. I love her so much. But she loves me more. That is hard to say, but she loves me more. I don't know why she loves me so much. She sees me for what I really am everyday and still chooses to love me , and love me unconditionally.

I am thankful for Millie. I haven't been able to comprehend my love for her. I love her so much. I can look at her and all my problems usually just go away. Thank you God for trusting myself with her. I will do my best.

I am thankful for Family. We have 2 loving families. Sinful? Yes. But loving. That is all we could ask for. All we need.

I am thankful for being in Austin. So thankful to live where we do and start community with believers around us.

Thankful for a job. Thankful that I can provide each month.

We have never gone without 1 meal. We have never had 1 night homeless. We have never gone unclothed.

We have Jesus. We really do. He is enough. Our hearts are sinful and can be led so easily astray. We play with our toys and dabble with earthly things, but we truly only need Jesus. May He wash away all else.

I really am believing more that we don't have to be rich to be happy. That is so hard to stop and truly believe.

Think about. And then yeah that's kinda what everyone is after...

Which leads me back to joy and the first sentence up at the top...

May God bring me to this conclusion at the end of my life, that I may find what would bring my soul utmost Joy and utmost purpose . I know God will show me this. Please do Lord, may I start to get ready for this....